well ive had a rough week so far(emotionlly) because i miss my baby sooo much... i remember the first ultrasound of him and how excited i was to see his little heartbeat... i remember him moving his hand in front of his mouth like he was sucking his thumb. i thought it was the sweetest thing in the world!!! but now all ive got of him is his ashes, now i cant ever see his little face again, or feel him move inside of me...i miss him... all i ever wanted was him in my arms, and to bring him home for the first ime! bbut ive been robbed of that... i feel like a failure to my husband and his family... i feel like everyone is looking down on me like im a mistake and shouldn't be allowed to live since i couldn't carry my baby. but even thoug all of this hurts i've got to be strong for my son, and for my future children...we're going to start tryin again after this cycle, which is anyday now.. sorry for the rant of emotions... i guess im just like this because its my time of the month... lol, anyways ttyl