well... today im meeting my bf (the one who has a newborn)for lunch, and im kinda nervous. im excited to see them but i just kepp thinking "we were suppose to have our babies at the same time and raise them together!" it hurts, but at the same time it helps me heal... she lets me learn how to change diapers and wrap the baby right so i know for when the time comes for me and my baby....whenever that is. she has helped me get through this... shes very supportive, and helps me to stay positive. anyways, i'm a little down right now but im sure ill be ok. i will post later!