I guess I have been just enveloped with the ideas and troubles of others this past few weeks. Things for them will work out one way or another, I have no control over what other people do, and I shouldn't worry so much of what they are choosing. The choices that people make impact lives they don;t even know that they have impacted, I've learned this.
It is hard to see others make poor decisions, but over the past i'd say three years I have almost entirely lost all my old friends. One at a time it seems, have drifted away, but to be honest I let them go, I really had no choice, It was best for me at the time but now I feel kinda lonely. This morning I have received two separate messages from two friends I used to consider my best friends that they " miss me". I am sure this is why I am whining about this now. I haven't spent time with either one of them in about a year. This past year has been full of life changes for me but they aren't going any where. It sounds mean to say but its true. I guess you can say I left them this time.
One friend is 19 lives with her boyfriend in another town and works at a gas station. She never went to college and didn't even try to, I tried to help her reach for something better, but she didn't want my help/ she enjoys smoking weed. I don't agree.
The other friend is 22 has a good job but blows all her money on drugs, she smokes, drinks and even though she denies it uses pills. She also lives with her boyfriend who I don't particularly like and tried college but dropped out twice. 
Both of these people were at one time my go to best friend who we were inseparable. Until life kinda pushed us away from each other. I drifted, they drifted, it just sort of happened. I don't live that kinda of life. I don't feel that using drugs is ok, and I won't ever. They do.