Day 41

I started my RN career today! I worked 630 to 3 and it was a very informative day. I did orientation of course but I got to meet all the residents and it was overall a very good day. I oriented with an aide who knew so much and really taught me a lot. I was nervous at first but after a while I really wasn't that nervous. I have so much to remember for tomorrow, I hope I don't forget anything. It was tiring but I am defiantly not as exhausted as I was with my last job! I did a whole eight and a half hours today with no problem. It really isn't that hard, I was kinda freaking myself out last night thinking I was gonna make a fool of myself and that I was gonna hate it or something but I remembered a lot of things when I got out there on the floor, and realized I can do this!! I had no feelings of what if people find out, or anything like I had before, I just went in there and did it! Confident in my abilities and proud to be an RN. I learned all the usual morning routines so I think tomorrow will go smooth. I survived my first day! Hopefully it can only go up from here! There is a lot I still need to learn but I am really looking forward to learning it! Now I am going to relax and get to sleep early again tonight, I have another early morning wake up. I got my schedule and I am working til Thursday and then on a mini vacation til Tuesday which should be nice! I am still looking forward to sleeping tonight though lol waking up at five a.m. isn't my specialty. But I DID IT and will be waking up this early for awhile, I am just really happy right now. I don't think I really thought this day would come. But here it is, the day I have been waiting for. They day the rest of my life begins. A new chapter is unfolding right before my eyes, I have career now. One that I am proud of. I am truly loving this, loving my life, loving me, all of me the good and the bad. I am proud to be me. I have come a long way from where I once was, I am back on a path of goodness and I couldn't ask for anything more.