Day 10

I guess I can say that I am good. Things were better today. I woke up with puffy eyes from all the crying I did yesterday. I talked to my mom about everything and it made me feel better plus all the nice things my friends on here said. Thank you. and especially unasanada. It makes me feel a little better to know I am not the only one who has cried at an interview. But geez, it still boggles my mind on why then? IDK but it happened I need to get passed it I spent much of the morning replaying in my head. It was just another turning point. I am human, these things happen. Its still not funny. But my boyfriend came over last night and we talked about embarrassing moments we've had throughout our lives and someday this will be a story I tell, I am sure. LOL uhh, its alright if I don't get the job I have a full schedule ahead of my as it is so I will live. That is one thing that I have. Life. Time. I don't want to let it go misused. I want to use my time wisely. That is one thing that is on my side. I have time to do anything. If there is only one good thing that comes out of this, I want it to be that the time I did have, mattered. I once thought I figured out the meaning of life. We all ponder about it. I know I spent many days thinking about why are we all here? Why this? Why this era? Why this life? and I got to thinking about time. What is time? Time isn't just the hours on a clock but much more than that. It is how we spend it that matters most. That is to some degree of my reasoning that bounced around in my head one day. IDK if it is,  if it even makes sense to anyone else but all I know is I don't wanna waste the time I was given.