Day 2

DAY 2 on Daily Strength, I am still getting used to everything on the website but I've been playing around on it. Gave some hugs and got some too so that cheered me up! Everyone is helpful thank you to those that have sent me things I appreciate it. I really do. I've been feeling quite lonely lately. It is crazy to think about all the things you have to do by yourself, and no one is there to help. I think way too much that is one of my main problems, I analyze everything. Even sending friend requests on this site, I caught myself thinking will anyone accept me? will they see I killed someone and hate me? ugh, I do this constantly. I judge myself before anyone has a chance to. I have such a negative view of what I've done that I can't help but think people are feeling the same way I think about myself. It feels good to air it out though, to have the words written by me up on my profile for all to see. I feel like when I don't tell people about it I'm keeping a secret or that they already know from another person or the newspaper or internet or something like that. And that they judge me, they think hey this girl is a piece of crap for what she did, you know what I mean? I know I am my toughest critic, and no one has really given me a hard time about it but at the same time I feel as though its part of my punishment. To be baring my cross for all to see. I do like that I can be open and honest on here without feeling judged.