This is beginning to seem like an ending that is taking forever to end, so much more revelations.... A close friend of mine was right, my ex is straight. Perhaps that's why this whole time she could never give me the love that I wanted. I was just someone who chanced upon her and fell in love with her and she threw herself at me because she was needy. 
I kinda lied to myself and fed myself hope that someday she would love me truly. I guess she did try but who knows. This was a painful lesson but a necessary one. I need to remember how being single and happy is like again.