matts home i should be happy. im happy being with him but lately i have been feeling hopeless about our relationship. idk why. how can i love someone and be so happy but at the same time be so hopeless?? i dont get it. im thinking its b/c hes going to college soon. i guess im just scared. but one thing that i worry about is me. i dont worry about him cheating on me or finding another girl and breaking up with me. i worry that i will get swept off my feet by some other guy or something. is that wierd to worry about myself? i feel bad for being like this now that he is home. i thought i was done being sad. i just talked to matt about his last nite. and now this morning i work up at 6 and cried till 7. now im up and me and matt are talking on msn about all this stuff. *sighs* why do i get this way? is it normal to feel this way? im so confused and i hate being like this. why do i do this??? i think the worst possible things and put myself in the worst scenerios. how can i change myself? or my way of thinking? why cant i just be happy? ive got great family friends and a great boyfriend. why am i sad and upset? maybe its just one of those days idk. please someone give me some advice here.
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Little Britt.... I really wish that your parents would let you go to a doctor. You might be depressed. It\'s okay. I had the same thing when I was your age. You learn different coping methods and just talking to someone in person who isn\'t directly related to your surroundings and situations but knows and is trained in those types of scenarios would be helpful. But if not, just keep talking to others. Think positive, there is no reason to think those thoughts. And you are only 18 so I would say it\'s perfectly normal to think of other guys sweeping you off your feet. I sometimes think they same thing. But then I try to picture being with a different guy or even when I go out to the bars or parties or hang out with friends and end up talking to other guys, it\'s just not the same as my Dino!! I\'m sure there could be a guy out there other then Dino but it just wouldn\'t feel right. When I actually get to thinking about some other guy hugging me, holding my hand, kisses, watching tv, going out, needing to talk, it wierds me out. But I also have and I have learned, to go with the flow. I worry a lot but, this is something that is too big to worry about constantly. As we\'ve seen, things are constantly changing in the Military. So take the time you have with him and cherish it, don\'t worry so much about tomorrow or the next months but instead ENJOY the now!!! I know you are a strong girl!!! Trust that God puts everything in it\'s place!!
I agree with Tina you really should seek some type of professional help. They might hold some answers to your anxiety. Who knows it might be just what you need. I think every relationship goes through that uncertainty faze. It is just part of having a healthy relationship. Hands down. You might always think about talking to someone at church, it is always good to have your faith in check! :) Take it easy on yourself, you tend to really bring yourself down at the worst times. Take care! *BIGHUG*