i went to matts family christmas. it was fun! im glad i went. i felt welcome there. it was hard for me to eat tho b/c i was so nervous b4 but the ride there was a long one so matt talked me thru it all the way there. i found that tapping really calms me down. i tapped on his arm teh whole way there. its so great to be so loved by someone. i love him so much! 2day after we got home from his christmas we went to the movies. he even invited my younger brother to come. that was really sweet of matt to do that. he is so great. i cant believe i got so lucky. we saw "i am legend" (i didnt like it. it was too scary for me. i jumped like every 10 seconds) matt and my brother really liked it tho. im still very car shy right now. matts driving scares me sometimes but im extra jumpy now. 2day was a good day.