tonite was good. i did have a panic attack (i think) b/c i dont know what one really is. my hands were tingling and i was stiff matt was right there telling me that it was ok and to breathe and all that stuff. he did so good. the reason i panacked was b/c i think i got a little too hot and my stomach started to hurt so i panacked. i am supposed to go to his family christmas tomorow but idk if i will b/c i dont want to have another random freak out. we went shopping today. taht was fun. except i was nervous b4 he got to my house to pick me up. i think i really do have a anxiety problem. im starting to think its a social anxiety b/c when im out somewhere im more on my toes and jittery. but when im at home im pretty calm. idk what to do. i love him tho. i guess thats all that matters. sometimes i think he could do better than me and that he deserves better. *sighs* i just need to live for today and not worry about tomorow. easier said than done tho.
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Huh. This does sound just like me. I know that I usually get my anxiety around people who I think won\'t understand my anxiety problems. I also get it in situations I believe would be hard for me to escape from. But, yeah, that\'s just how I feel. But you have a good attitude towards it, and that can go places! It is easier said than done though, but eventually I think that it does work! Good luck! ^-^
Oh my goodness, last night I almost had a panic attack too. I was perfectly calm and not anxious at all but all of a sudden my heart was beating so hard and so fast I could feel it. We took my blood pressure it was like 153 over 130 with like 113 beats a minute. It was crazy because I didn\'t even feel anxious but the anxiety was trying to take over. I hope you guys have a great time whatever you do, and remember, breathe, breathe, breathe!
Oh and I can relate with feeling that he deserves better. Just trust that he wouldn\'t say he loved you if he didn\'t mean it. And why would he waste time with you if he didn\'t love you?