over all i had a good week. but im starting to get nervous again. i knew that would happen. blah. matt will be home wednesday of thursday. he thinks he might fly out the day after he graduates instead of the same day. but he doesnt know. so in 4 or 5 days he will be home. i am excited but nervous too. he asked me if i wanted to go with him to his families christmas, which i knew he would, and now im dreading it. im afraid ill get nervous there and have to leave or wont be able to eat much and his mom will say something like u didnt eat much i cant really stand her sometimes! im just worrying myself again. and he asked me to go shopping with him on friday. yes i want to go but at the same time im scared im gonna flip out a little when he gets back and that i might not be able to handel that b/c of my anxiety. idk. im jsut scared of alot of things i dont need to be scared or nervous about i guess. i hate this anxiety thing. i thought i was doing good and now im falling back into it. sorry to rambel about everything. hope everyone has a good day