well yesterday was actually good! idk what happened to make me turn around! but i did and i was actually VERY excited about matt comming home! i wasnt nervous all day. it felt GREAT!!!! this morning i am a little nervous but i'll talk myself out of it. yesterday i actually gave myself a pep talk and it REALLY helped. so i'll do that again. i kept saying to myself, stop being nervous there isnt anything to be nervous about, blablabla. it helped so much. also writing that journal really helped. i might do more private journaling just so that i can get stuff out and you guys wont have to hear me complain. lol. i think today will also be a good day. i hope this mood stays around for EVER!!!!!! lol well i hope everyone else has a good day.