feeling a little down today. the past couple days have been rough for me and im not sure why exactly. i mean i cried thursday and last nite on the phone with matt and i feel like it today too. i thought i was over crying. i had been doing so good for a long period of time and now its like im back to where i started. :( plus im have been thinking alot about my 18th birthday comming up this thursday. im NOT at all looking foreward to it. im not ready to be an adult. why cant i just know what to do with my life? why cant i be sure about my relationship? why cant i decide what God thinks is best? how does anyone get through life given the fact that no one knows exactly what God wants. Im also afraid of what God wants for me. what if matts not part of it? i want him to be but part of my life but its like im so young and am i making the right decisions? how do u know when you've found "the one" ? i guess i just need someone to tell me im on the right path in life and no one can tell me that. i know i am the one that has to figure it out but idk how! im confused. i know what i want but idk if its right! dont u ever with u could sit down and have a confrence with God? boy do i need one! 
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seriously, i always wish i could be showwn what to do with my life. i know exactly what your talking about. but all you need to do trust God that he will show you what it is you are supposed to do when it\'s right. this sturggle you are having is probably going to make the realization so much more influential. it will come lovee, i know its really hard; im struggling with all sorts of things, but God has a plan, and you just have to trust him that it\'s the right decision. love ya! im always here for you! xoxo, katie
I wish I could sit down and talk to God. If I had one wish, I\'d wish for that. I remember when I turned 18 I was so lost and confused...and guess what 3 years later I still feel the same way. Graduating from High school and growing up is such a weird feeling. My life since I moved away from home has been on a crazy rollar coaster. It still is. Something I\'ve learned is that there are always constants, like a really good friend, or a close relative.
I\'ve also learned that life changes like clockwork, it never stays the same. I went from college with steady boyfreind, to college drop out with new druggie boyfriend. Then to horrible, awful, mean, jerk. Then to new boyfriend/night club worker jerk. Then to nice, homebody, military wife in 2 years. Wooooah. lol
You just have to let your life go, let it go to where ever you end up. Sometimes things are really going to suck, and you\'ll feel like there\'s nothing left, and other times you\'ll be happier then you\'ve ever been. God wont steer you in the wrong direction. Because he really does know what\'s best for you.
I hope that helped a little bit. :)
wow, that even helped me! :)