i was in a really bad mood yesterday. i was stressed about dance team (im missing 3 practices this week and theres a HUGE game to dance at on friday. its senior night and all the seniors on the dance team are basically the spot light and if i dont know the dance im gonna look stupid!) but yea i was stressing out! and well a little emotional this week, aunt flo has came into town this week . i was talking on the phone with matt and he was trying to cheer me up so he started singing a song to me to cheer me up and well it didnt work. it just made me miss his silly little things he does to try to cheer me up and so i just cried. i tried to hold it in so hard b/c i dont want him to know about me crying! b/c then he gets all down on himself and says that he is a bad boyfriend for "doing this" to me (being away) i always tell him that its not his fault and that im just stressed. then he says that its not true and that it IS his fault that im crying. idk....im confused as to who or what to blame it (me crying) on, but im not going to blame anything on him. b/c truely to me its not his fault! i wish he could see how great of a boyfriend he really is. it makes me feel bad that i cant make him feel like he is a good boyfriend. its so hard to be strong sometimes.