i talked to matt on friday and he said that he would probably get to call me on sunday. so i wait around all day by the phone and he doesnt call. im not mad at him i just wish that he wouldnt tell me that he will get a phone call and then get my hopes up and then him not call. i know its not his fault (more than likely he or his platoon got in trouble and they took away their phone calls away) but i still hate it. i understand that he cant always call me. but i guess im selfish for wanting to talk to him. he always brings my spirits up and usually gets me throuh the week. but now im feeling down. also yesterday i found out someone that matt graduated with got killed in a car accident around noon yesterday. today is gonna be another sad day at school. right b4 school started there was a girl who hung herself too. its crazy! i didnt know the boy but i knew who he was and even tho i didnt know him it still brought me down and put me in a depressing mood. im not sure if matt knew him. thats another reason i wanted him to call so i could ask him if he knew the boy. i dont think he did but i dont want to assume that he didnt know him. with all that said....i wish i had gotten the phone call but i understand why i didnt. i just dont like it. :(