i talked to matts dad on the phone today. i was glad that he answered  the phone instead of his step mom b/c matt told me in one of his letters that his dad had written to him ihs dad said that he respected me for waiting for matt to get back. it made me know that at least his dad liked me. well anyways...we talked about my grades and how i was doing and my plans for after highschool and matts plans after highshool. matt doesnt really know what he wants to do and neither do i but his dad was saying that matt had said something about being a p.e. teacher and i told his dad that i want to do something with kids and he said, "yea you could both be teachers and that way u and matt can work together in the future." or something to that affect. i was like wow! his dad has faith that we will last for a long time...why dont i have faith? im glad his dad believes we can make it. it gives me more faith. i didnt get a letter today. but im ok. today was kinda rough for me. this morning i was texting a friend and we were talking about matt and my friend said, "yea i miss matt too b/c when i'm down he would come out of nowhere and say something stupid to make mee feel better." i just started crying. out of nowhere and i look over at my bestfriend in the middle of calss and was like i need a hug! i didnt cry hard or for very long but it was wierd how it kinda hit out of nowhere. i was like i miss my stupid matt too! lol hes not stupid he just do something or say something stupid to cheer me up when i was down. then i got to dance practice and completely 4got about him (meaning i didnt think about him at all during practice) and afterwards i felt alot better. i guess dancing helps me out. it lets me forget all my problems. btw today was a good practice. YAY! but yea today was kinda up and down but right now i feel good. well talk to you guys later! and again thanks 4 all ur help!-Brittany