Wednesday, February 27, 2008

okay so i know i have not been on this website in like litterally months. so let me tell you a little of what has happened. so i got the job at tmobile..still working there and got a raise :) way exciting. i have my drivers license test next week..wish me luck! pray for me! and the bf of two years and i broke up because he felt since i have  money he can spend it all on his car and treat me like crap and yell at me for the eating issues. well i had enough and finally left and now live with my older brother and love it. he is my best friend again. I did really well with the eating im stable at abou 114 right now. but lately i have started the binge and throw up again..im not sure if its the change or what. im trying very hard to control it. my brother is trying to help me by making sure i dont do it anymore. another new thing is i have an amazing bf. i know you all may think its too soon but this has all happened within the last 4 months. well he is a bit older he is 25 and im 19 now. but we fit so well together. and we are makinga lot of future plans so its going wella nd i never thought i would have someone who would treat me so well. he is helping me get better. he does not know about the throwing up. he knows about when i wouldnt eat anything at all for about 7 months and my battle with food and calories and what not but he is patient and encourages me and tells me he will love me no matter what my size. that makes me feel good. i guess waht im coming down to is i should never have left coming to this site for when i started you all helped me get over so much and i was doing so well untill i lost internet and could not get on anymore. i am back now and hoping more then anythingyou all have some successes to share with me thats happened to you the last few months some updates and some advise for me as well as vice versa :) i hope you are all doing well and i love all of you for everything you have done and gone through