Today has been an o.k. day for me today, but I have something that is really bothering me and I'd love to have some input on it. I have prayed for years that The Lord would send someone into my life to love me and for me to love and to be my husband. I have never been married and have no children. I have met a wonderful man in Moscow, Russia. We have talked for nearly a year now, and we are planning to meet soon. He knows a little bit about my anxiety problem, but I am so afraid that if and when we meet, what if I have a panic attack?! What if he thinks I'm weird, or crazy?! What if I'm just so anxious that we don't have a good time? I am so worried about meeting him, that I have thought about just telling him we cannot talk anymore. My friends and family are more concerned about whether or not this man is honest, trustworthy, and has good intentions. My biggest worry is about myself. What should I do?
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HI,Kacey,sorry hun i have had computer problems,just now got it fixed i pray. Well Sweetie,anyone would be annxious about seeing someone in person,and one you have have really been talking too.I can understand you being worried,but if you have told him,maybe he will understand.I know a lot of men who does not have panic attacks(like my husband,does not fully understand them),but he is there for me anyway.Always remember hun,YOU ARE NOT CRAZY,OR WEIRD!You just have this one problem,and its something you cannot help.So don\'t be so hard on yourseft,God is with you,and he hands your hand,and he walks with you,and he is there for you!I know i am not in your shoes,and all i can sya sweetie is,do the best you can,and try and think positive when you too do meet face to face.Try and not think of the \"what if\'s\".I know when i do that,i do have a attack,so keep the what if\'s off your mind if you can.You are going to be nervous,who wouldn\'t be,but maybe sweetie,everything will go well and you can have your mind at ease.Just think about how much you have been waiting on this meeting,and be happy.Now since i have a daughter,i am going to say this,make sure about your friends and family concern,just make sure sweetie is all i am saying,and i hope i am not overstepping my bounds here,but i also want you to be happy and i do care about you.I want you to have that husband and family and that love you want!!Everyone should have that,and there is nothing wrong with it.Just take a deep breath and think positive sweetie,and try and be as easy and calm as you can.I know this will be hard,but you can do this ,i know you can.But whatever you do,i am behine you 100 percent.I know i didn\'t help you much,but try and take each step one at a time,for you are my friend,and i want to see you happy with the right guy.My prayers and thoughts will be with you sweetie,and know that i do care.Let me know how things go.Are you meetting here in the US? God Bless you my dear friend.Love you,Shea,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,