We just found out the other day that Mom died from an overdose of a combination of 3 drugs.  I suspected this all along but somehow, now that we know for sure, I am falling apart.  I am so angry.  I want to yell, hit, scream, break things.  I am hurting so much and stuck in a rut with this grief process.  It is hard for me right now to see that things will eventually get better.