Pink.
I'm feeling better than I was the last time I wrote. I don't feel like I'm floating aimlessly through life as much. But I can't figure out if it's because things are improving, or if it's because my Give-A-Fuck is just kinda busted.
I realized that I haven't changed as much as I thought I have. While I was trying to improve myself, I was getting no feedback. And I know I should change for myself, but at the same time, it's basic human nature to want praise when you do something well. I have people in my life that have no problem scolding my negative behavior, so why won't they reinforce my GOOD behavior? People make no sense to me.
I feel bad, but I'm just going to do me for a while. It's going to hurt people. Hearts will be broken. Angers will flare. But I can't help but be me, right?
I realized that I haven't changed as much as I thought I have. While I was trying to improve myself, I was getting no feedback. And I know I should change for myself, but at the same time, it's basic human nature to want praise when you do something well. I have people in my life that have no problem scolding my negative behavior, so why won't they reinforce my GOOD behavior? People make no sense to me.
I feel bad, but I'm just going to do me for a while. It's going to hurt people. Hearts will be broken. Angers will flare. But I can't help but be me, right?
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