To Everyone,I thought you all should know this. So i wrote this to share with you all. Part of my doesnt want to do this because its going to hurt so many people here on DS i mean. I care about you all so much and secondly because of afew things people have said to me. Jule and Mum for instants, I cant have that on my hands. In Jules case Its like if i chose to leave then i'll commit suicide and murder at the same time. But then i really do want to go with me and this part is bigger and stronger. i cant cope anymore with anything. Thing thats tipped me right over is having to say goodbye to my Bestest friend in the world who i class as my twin sister, its like we've been together all our lives. She the best was always there for me as i was for here we helped each other through some really rough times and also had good times we loved each other for both the good and the bad and she never let anything get in the way of our friendship nor did i.I kinda wish someone would just sorta rescue me. Take me to the hospital and have me admitted basically put me somewhere where i'm safe from myself. But wishes dont come true and i cant do it myself.Love you all so muchxoxox