To Everyone,I thought you all should know this. So i wrote this to share with you all. Part of my doesnt want to do this because its going to hurt so many people here on DS i mean. I care about you all so much and secondly because of afew things people have said to me. Jule and Mum for instants, I cant have that on my hands. In Jules case Its like if i chose to leave then i'll commit suicide and murder at the same time. But then i really do want to go with me and this part is bigger and stronger. i cant cope anymore with anything. Thing thats tipped me right over is having to say goodbye to my Bestest friend in the world who i class as my twin sister, its like we've been together all our lives. She the best was always there for me as i was for here we helped each other through some really rough times and also had good times we loved each other for both the good and the bad and she never let anything get in the way of our friendship nor did i.I kinda wish someone would just sorta rescue me. Take me to the hospital and have me admitted basically put me somewhere where i'm safe from myself. But wishes dont come true and i cant do it myself.Love you all so muchxoxox
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Tell someone close to you
I don\'t know you that wel, but I know that people on here are begging you to stay
You only have to look at your journals to see that.
Lean on these people and talk to them instead of topping yourself
Then maybe you can work up the courage to go to the hospital
If I oculd I would take you myself, but I can\'t
Lean on people here, instead of hurting them
Use them to help you cope
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Becka, If you can\'t ask anyone to take you to the hospital, call the emergency number, and tell them you are in a crisis situation. They will come get you! There are people to help if you let them. Love and Light, Susan xoxo
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Becka, Please get some help. Call someone. You will be amazed how you feel once you have sought out the help. I wish I could take you myself. Huge Hug to you.
i love you darlin and only can pray now that you cant go through with it (you no how much this would hurt me if you left) and the though that i could lose Jules as well(weve become so close) and then my sis M. its just all so much...
it kills me inside knowing there is nothing i can say or do to get you to stay...
I LOVE YOU LOADS
FOREVER AND ALWAYS
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Dearest becka everyone on DS our your friend please talk to me about this,and anything else that bothering you love shirlxx
yes you can help yourself!! tell someone, your mom or something, jusrt because your friend is leaving dont make it right to kill/hurt yourself, i know your pain but my best friend betrayed me in a very unimaginable way, your friend is just moving, she will still keep in touch with you and you can always visit her and she can visit you, and how would she feel if you did comit suicide?? there is nothing worse than feeling you are to blame for someones death because thats exactly how your friend will feel, can you handle hurting her like that?? sorry for being blunt but i had a friend kill himself, i feel guilty even now, please sit down when you are in a better thinking mood, write down all the pro\'s and cons of staying, i bet all the pro\'s outweigh the cons, i can even start for you Pro\'s (1) your only 15!! (2) you seem kind (3) loving (4) loyal (5) people would miss you (6) your loved (7) your pretty (8) if you get through this you can be anything you want to be........... ect.... i cant lable the cons because i dont know you that well, you are loved and needed!! xx
Give me your phone number in message,Ill call anyone you want me too becka,you have to shout out, call a crisis hotline for teens anything, Briar is not leaving you for good, Im out here in usa, but talk to my sister in England at least twice a week, hon you can keep that friendship going, and not long from now you can get a job, and maybe be with briar again, this is not the end of the world, there is always possibilities, Briar will always be there for you, whether shes living in same town or not trust me, she\'ll have a phone, she\'ll have an address. xxxx))))))))
Please don\'t leave you know how i feel about this and its so very hard for me to deal with this. I also know the M person that suicidalme is talking about! I can only pray now that you won\'t do anything. I love you so very much.
dont know you... but i know there are ppl who care about u... so.. just DONT do it...
Please stay and talk, we will be with you and help you through this. I love you and wish I could come right over there and sweep you away, I am too far but I love you like one of my own. You are my daughter and I love you loads. Don\'t want to lose you, please think about this before you do anything. mum xxxxx
Please Becka, Please call the crisis hot line.You can do it, I know you can. You are stronger than you know.Message me, we\'ll talk about it, okay?
If I was there I would take you but I am on the other side of the world! Call the line like economygirll said. There is help there if you just reach out to get it! Please...there is a doubt there because you know that you really don\'t want to do this. It would make too many peoples live be never the same. Especially those of us who truly love you! Please...seek help...(((hugging you tight))) Loving you always, Aunty
I\'m holding on to you in my prayers, in my heart. Bless you, sweety!
~Mona~
TO MY SWEET BECKA, I READ UR LAST JOURNAL, just get on that phone and call the emergency hot line, like i did to talk to someone to get help for u, they won,t let u go, they will get u help, my heart has been torn and my mind is under tremendous pain, i don,t know how to reach u, and i,m so glad to hear that ur having clearer thoughts today, and i hope u,ll change ur mind, ur best friend, will always be ur best friend, i,ve had friends for several years, i had to let go, because they really weren,t my friends, ur so lucky to have her, the number u gave marina, wasn,t the right number, i can understand, u don,t want anyone to contact u, ur life is just a phone call away, i know i have said some things to u in my emails, and i mean evewry one of them, i,m to far away to help u , i,d carry u in my arms myself, and walk u there if i could, cause see i have no car, but that shows u how much i love u, i wish u the best hun, and hope u stay, UR MUM, UR SISTERS STEPH MARINA AND KRISTY!