Found another specialist for the neuroendocrine tumors and will see heron April 2nd. i am nervous and maybe thereis hope for some quality of life while I am still here. I am not afraid of death. You simply can't avoid it. And I know my daughter is waiting. Just a matter of time before we pick up where we left off. When it's your time, it's your time. I am worried about my husband. I don;t know how long I have. I know survival rate for this typr of rare cancer is 5-8 years. I just want my life to be meaninful and leave a tracein this life of being a good soul. Life doesn't make sense. I have lost evrything and now have to live with cancer. When wil this ever get better. I just want to see some light in my life. Where is the rainbow ?