Life is so hard. Struggling with severe derpression. Just can't find any joy in life. I feel so sad all the time. This virus is just killing me. I hate the thought of it some day turning into cancer. I have high risk HPV and I am so sad.  Struggling with my grief and it's been 2 years and 5 months. Still seems like yesterday. I miss Samantha so much. I wish I was in heaven with her. I can;t wait to see her again. Funny how everyone walks away after a few months into grief and assume everything is fine and back to normal. Normal for them. Time just stood still for me the day she died. I can't move on and I just can't cope with the sadness of losing my only daughter. Seems the pain will never ease. My heart goes out to everyone that has a lost a child and for tjose of us left behind in this awful grief.