This week was very diffuclt but I got through it. Still not feeling so great, just plain tired of life. I hope things will get betetr soon. Today, I just feel sorry for myself, I know there are people worse off than me and yet I still feel sorry for myself. I hate going through the things that I have to go through. I am not happy with the cards I was dealt with. I just need to find peace.  This HPV thing. Who has time for this crap anyway? Whre did it come from and why were we never told this crap existed beforew it was too late ? I feel like it would have been nice to know and prevented this. Life is so unfair. I know I am really negative today but I need to just get this out and hope things will get better at least to the point whre I can cope with everything.