Today is my husband's birthday. Birthdays will never be the same witout our daughter. Lief is so hard and a challenge every day . I know she is watching  over but I miss her hugs, love and laughter. I don;t know if the pain will ever ease.  HPV has really made me more depressed and Today I feel like there is no hope. It has been one thing after another since we lost Sammy. I wonder if my body is just giving up. I know my heart can't take anymore. I still wonder why we were chosen to have these things happen in our lives. I just wish I had my old life back when everything was wonderful. Now, there isnt much to look forward to.