ok I am reallllly confused, I keep reading how people have their first episode of what looks like MS and then they may or may not have another.  how this temporoary loss of feeling or blindness or however it presents may go away and never come back again. WTF? my numbness has been going on for 8 or 9 months and has become pretty much a daily part of my life.  what the hell is this? the worlds longest exacerbation? no....I am at a loss. this shit is supposed to be transient in the begining..... so someone please explain to me how someone with nothing on her MRIs has daily symptoms?  everything else aside, all the little buggies and zaps and spasms and pain and and and ..... I have had numbness in my left hand and foot EVERYDAY and now am getting it in my right hand and foot since.... well at least for the last 2 months.  so how the hell do they figure that you have this cut and dry disease process that everyone follows and that dx should be the same. ok, so help me God I hope they figure out whats wrong with me before it does permanent damage or outright kills me. I have googled until I cant google anymore and cant find anything else that matches my symptoms. so what now, I know , I know wait for the results to all my tests..... lemme tell ya sumthin, they are all going to be normal, just like evryother test that has ever been done any other time I have been ill and I am going to spend the rest of my life chasing...not a cure but a f**king disease!!!! this is absolutely ridiculous! Ok, how as a physician can you just send someone back out into the world over and over and over again not being able to feel their own foot or hand? I am just a little confused and a bit angry at this point. if I could have 1 day to forget about this shit , it would be really helpful, then at least my body and mind could join my doctors in denial.