Well I went away for a couple of days to spend time with my beloved sis and mum.  Had fab time and felt so much brighter.  I had the ole sinking feeling on my drive home and felt depressed as soon as I got back in the door of my house.  WHY? there are some people that would kill for what I have got.  I feel so guilty being depressed, like it is often unjustified.  Well tommorrow is another day, I am trying not feel anxious about it.  My anxiety strikes at it's very worst at night, making it difficult to go to bed - which makes me oversleep, which makes me start the day feeling out of control and annoyed with myself, which makes me feel awful and so on.  Need to break this cycle.  Well I have a good book to read, gonna try and go bed soon.