Feeling more like I am getting a grip today.  I made one of my rather famous 'to do' lists and then I made myself scrub out the things do not really matter, as in the world will not cave in and explode if I don't do them! Then I highlighted the important things, particularly the one's that make me shudder with anxiety at the mere thought of them.  I have decided to make time to tackle each one, I am hoping that this will reduce my anxiety levels somewhat.  Once I got that out of the way, I was able to enjoy some quality time with my kids, which was great, they are such good company and so much fun and I even snatched some quality time for myself afterwards, which felt pretty good.  More of that please, I hear the inner me shouting out!  However, on the not so positive side, I have hardly said two words to my hubby today.  I think it is because a) he drives me nuts, I am so frustrated by some of his annoying ways and b) all I have been doing is nagging him about the things I am frustrated about, so he has been spared my wrath today!  I need to do something about our relationship pretty damn soon, I hate being naggin-bitch-wife (I really hope he doesn't go 'round saying that!!) I feel so terrible about the way I treat him sometimes, I know deep-down that I am better than that.  Don't want to put mending my marriage on a 'to-do' list, 'cos it would be like reducing it down to a chore.  It shouldn't be a thing 'to do', but rather something with more feeling than that surely.  Whatever I do, I now realise that I have some self-healing to engage in first and that might have to take some priority.  I guess I need to be telling him that don't I?