I am feeling somewhat better (ish) today, however, the overwhelming boughts of anxiety are difficult to manage.  I have tried telling myself that there really is nothing to worry about, lighten up.  But it is so difficult, my stomach feels churned up, like you get before an exam.   Done a serious amount of painting and decorating stuff today.  It's like, if I actually like where am living, I won't run away, aside from that I really can't keep still!.  I realise that if I move away now, I will just take my probs with me.  This is it, I have to sort myself out.  Something must change otherwise I may actually go insane!! aaarrrggggh!