Moving forward
My husband has been gone to Mexico this week to see his mom. Said he didn't want to be home for his birthday (it is tomorrow). It is a long story but to be honest, I think he wants me to care and wants to hurt me by this and I just don't. I feel nothing.
When I first came back to DS this time I had been going through this process for months! Silent treatment, snippy ugly comments, things I have done over the past 23 years that have upset him and he won't ever let go of...it is never-ending. I posted as my anniversary was coming up and has sent pased. While I was at one point devastated, I am not any longer. It is perfect. My friend sent me the 5 stages to acceptance (or through grief as this is a grieving process) Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. I am finally to stage 5. I can't tell you how good this feels. I know I will have bad times again but right this minute? I am good.
When I first came back to DS this time I had been going through this process for months! Silent treatment, snippy ugly comments, things I have done over the past 23 years that have upset him and he won't ever let go of...it is never-ending. I posted as my anniversary was coming up and has sent pased. While I was at one point devastated, I am not any longer. It is perfect. My friend sent me the 5 stages to acceptance (or through grief as this is a grieving process) Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. I am finally to stage 5. I can't tell you how good this feels. I know I will have bad times again but right this minute? I am good.
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