I've had a strange day today. It's been 23 weeks and today is the first day I haven't cried since you've been gone. I did some voluntary help at Thoms school which I enjoyed but found it really tiring, I guess it's because I haven't been to work since you died Ric. I feel guilty for feeling semi ok, it doesn't mean I don't love or miss you Ric, please don't think that.
It would have been your 50th birthday next week, Thom and I are going to send some balloons up to you like we did on Fathers Day. Thom decided we should do something we all enjoyed together, so we are going out for dinner and going bowling to celebrate your birthday. My friend messaged me today Ric and told me that I will see you again one day, and you know what I really believe that I will, that's why I write to you all the time, as there will be too much to tell when I do.
I know there is a path that Thom and I have to follow, and I will love and nurture him, you will be so proud. We miss you Ric, you are my first and last thought of every single day. You are safe in my heart Ric xxxxx PS I am now crying! :)
It would have been your 50th birthday next week, Thom and I are going to send some balloons up to you like we did on Fathers Day. Thom decided we should do something we all enjoyed together, so we are going out for dinner and going bowling to celebrate your birthday. My friend messaged me today Ric and told me that I will see you again one day, and you know what I really believe that I will, that's why I write to you all the time, as there will be too much to tell when I do.
I know there is a path that Thom and I have to follow, and I will love and nurture him, you will be so proud. We miss you Ric, you are my first and last thought of every single day. You are safe in my heart Ric xxxxx PS I am now crying! :)
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It is 8 months today since Home passed away. I still cry from time to time at different times. The Lord will give you His strength for each day. He knows what you are going through each day and is holding you and Thom in His arms. Check out UTube and the song \"To Be Held\" by Natalie Grant, it is so beautiful and meaningful. I just listened to it, it made me cry as I listened. Tears are healing. When my one brother passed in 1988, I did not want to cry at the viewing, my sister\'s pastor told me that is why God gave us tear ducts.
That is wonderful that you will celebrate Ric\'s 50th birthday sending up balloons and going out to diner and bowling. What day next week is his birthday?
Ric will be proud of Thom, I can tell you are a gentle person full of love to give your son as he grows.
You and Thom are in my prayers
Bunches of Hugs to both of you
recent widow
I had the name of the song wrong. I just saw it on the discussion board and listened to it again. Check out the discussion board \"When the Sacred is torn from you\", she has a link right to UTube where you can listen to it and see the words to the song. It is called \"Held\". It was what I needed to hear today since it is 8 months for my Home. God used it to touch me with HIS love HE has for each of us.
God Bless You and Thom, prayers are with you and Thom
Big Hugs for you and Thom
recent widow
Thank you recentwidow I will check out that song. Rics birthday is Tuesday next week and it will be six months on that day since he left. We are going to release some balloons up to him like we did for Fathers Day.
Some days I feel I can cope with this and others, I just don\'t want to wake up or get out of bed; I keep going for my son as he gives me purpose, Hugs to you Nicola
Thank you for letting me know when Ric\'s birthday is. I will be thinking of you and Thom extra special on Tuesday of next week. You and Thom are in my prayers and will be praying extra next Tuesday for you both.
Blessing of Christ\'s Peace fill your heart.
Big Hugs to you and Thom,
recent widow