I've had a strange day today. It's been 23 weeks and today is the first day I haven't cried since you've been gone. I did some voluntary help at Thoms school which I enjoyed but found it really tiring, I guess it's because I haven't been to work since you died Ric. I feel guilty for feeling semi ok, it doesn't mean I don't love or miss you Ric, please don't think that.
It would have been your 50th birthday next week, Thom and I are going to send some balloons up to you like we did on Fathers Day. Thom decided we should do something we all enjoyed together, so we are going out for dinner and going bowling to celebrate your birthday. My friend messaged me today Ric and told me that I will see you again one day, and you know what I really believe that I will, that's why I write to you all the time, as there will be too much to tell when I do.
I know there is a path that Thom and I have to follow, and I will love and nurture him, you will be so proud. We miss you Ric, you are my first and last thought of every single day. You are safe in my heart Ric xxxxx PS I am now crying! :)