I started to sort through a bag of our holiday clothes tonight, as Thomas and I are going to join Rics parents in Cyprus, where Ric, Thom and I always went every year. It was heart wrenching just looking at his shorts, thinking of all the good times we had, knowing he will never be coming on holiday again, or wearing the shorts. I still can't believe it, I cried and cried, but now I feel numb with disbelief and no reaction again. I miss you so much Ric and so does Thom. He came home with a prize from school yesterday for completing his star chart, and he wanted to show you, so he wrote it in his memory book instead. You are safe in my heart, and no one can hurt you now xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx