Today I feel ok, I went to a local group support, and started in tears but finished feeling better that there are people going through the same journey, and that care. I feel that my own people distance themselves now, and rarely check to see how I am. My next hurdle is the inquest into my partners death which I am dreading; I have read the notes and statements, but don't want to have to listen to it and also see the two horrible people who have made my journey even more difficult by saying I was involved in his death. I will be glad when that day is over.