another day.....

I just feel like it's not much of a life lately. Wait, let me rephrase that. It is a wonderful life, just not what I had hoped for. Call it the birthday blues (saturday I turn 60---wow! 60?) So many holidays as a single woman in the last few years. I guess if you count even the times I was with the exaSS IT'S LONGER. i STILL SPENT HOLIDAYS ALONE. aLWAYS THAT LOAD HE HAD TO DELIVER OR WHATEVER.
Sorry, caps stuck.....
I will bounce back. I always do. Year hasn't started out the best. Did get a check but it was late. But at least I have one. I hate this small amount of control he has.
My little guy (enough of the poor me shit) is the apple of this Nona's eye. He is learning more and more every day. Maybe not all good things but he is a fast learner. Wouldn't give up one second of him.
Went to docs for checkup. Sugar and cholesterol both up. But she says a lot is probably stress related. You think? You try dealing with a narcissistic butthead on a weekly/monthly basis. She wants me to maybe see another doc for some minor things. (nothing major, just cosmetic) Told her if not needed then not going. I have no co-pay and can't spend what I don't have. Just increases my stress level. I started back on my treadmill. It was a great stress reliever before so I am counting on it again. If I lose a few pounds in the process then goodie goodie. I will watch what I eat and keep on the exercise and bring those levels down. I did it before so I know I can do it again. Just a little slower. lol It takes me longer than norm since I have no thyroids.
Ok I feel better having vented a little. My family don't really care to listen. It's always "forget about him. Move on. Don't let him get to you" So you lucky peeps get to hear it all. and I thank you for that.