ugh!

I am trying so hard not to get emotional. I have been a rock for so long. I worry about bills. Not extra privileges for me. Just bills paid on time. He hasn't sent money for 10 days now. I know not much but he has been so regular for so long I actually had a tiny hope he was trying. I will wait another week then may file against him for contempt. I know legally I can since payments aren't consistent. But I still sit here and keep fingers crossed it comes.
stupid stupid me for believing at all.