not sure

feeling lots of ups and downs lately. cry for no reason I can think of at the moment. Feel like I'm stuck. Then I will have a super high. Not sure what it all means. I know  a lot of thought has been when/if the exass will appear at work place again. Hate walking on pins and needles. I catch myself looking ans scanning every truck that pulls in or every motorcycle that goes by my house. I hate living this way.
I think all this worrying is doing a little thing to my health. I seem to ache more or just don't feel right. I try so hard not to let it get to me but I have been strong for so long and for a good amount of time my life was seemingly normal (at least my type of normal lol) Till he decided to haunt my life again. I guess safety is my concern and I will stay very alert for a long time yet.

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KRKing911
KRKing911

I\'m so sorry you are going through this. Can you put a no-contact order (or have you already?) out against him? I know it\'s just a piece of paper, but it might deter him. As for him coming to the workplace - make sure that you have someone walk you to your car when you leave. Do they have security there? Stay strong honey. It won\'t last forever.
nohappy
nohappy

thanks but its a public place (truckstop sorta) and nco won\'t work. That\'s why I am so alert. If I see him first (I hope I do) then I can leave area. But would that be why I have been so uneasy lately? Back to the pills for a while I guess. And lots of loving from grandson help!
Misred
Misred

(((HUGS))) You are right, being on high alert will affect your health. I wish I had some good advice for you. I will pray that he leaves you alone for good.
hurtinandhealin2560
hurtinandhealin2560

So sorry you\'re struggling. Sending hugs!!