Everyday I find myself in an endless cycle. I check my phone, no new messages. I check my contacts, none of them would talk to me. Check my different instant messaging, nobody online, nor have they been in literally years. Open the internet, log in here. look at my friends, none online. If they are, I know I cant initiate a conversation anyways. I'm extremely lonely because I was once a very well liked person with many friends. But I've become a bitter angry awkward person nobody wants to be around or even talk to. What do I do, I dont know how to change, I cant manage to figure out what I'm doing wrong. People just seem repulsed by me and I cant figure out why and so I sit alone all day everyday ready to scream to fight to tear my flesh off the bone if it meant I could have even one friend. But I cant. I've become such an awkward being I seem to have no Idea how to deal with humans. But heres the irony. People like me if they meet me in person, But I am unable to leave my house nearly ever, and once I am forced into this world of electronic interaction I am like a rock tossed in the ocean, I sink down unnoticed and remain in the darkest depth to be forgotten and ignored. What an existence eh