Dreams

The last week or so I keep having dreams about him and the past.  Things I "should" have done differently to make things work or making me doubt what I did.  I hate it.  I wake up feeling as if I just got punched in the stomach all over again.  It's ridiculous.  I've been trying to meditate a few minutes before bed to clear my mind and hope of dreams about the future or asking for what career to pursue thinking it will keep me off dreams about the ex but it's not working.  I know I have 2 choices to either ignore the dreams because that's just what they are and have a good day or let it ruin the rest of the day.  It's just so hard when I still doubt myself and my actions so much.  
I have another appointment with the domestic violence counselor today.  I have a few things wrote down I want to talk about and I finished the assignments she gave me.  I hope things start progressing soon, I don't know how much more of this I can take with the back and forth feelings.