Holidays

Well,I made it thru Christmas day, I was a nervous wreck about going to sisters for the day. But it went off fairly well, everyone was civil. I gave my mom a hug, but really didn't speak to her that much, she had invited Stephanie who used to be my best friend,but is now my moms BF. Steph was nice but kind of on the cold side, I guess they expected me to be all regretful or something. I'm not sorry for pulling away. I  gave my Mom a Oven for Christmas, it's used but its the one she wanted, I had to drive over 200 miles to pick it up. Well, when I got to my sisters, she asked if she could go in on it as a gift, then proceeded to ask both my brothers if they wanted to go in on it also, she did this without asking me,when Isaid something to her she said she does'nt have much money so this will help defray her cost, mind you this oven only cost $150.00.  I felt this was such bullshit, I did the searching and the driving and actual put some thought into it.So I had taken a picture of the oven and had signed it, sister went and unwrapped it and signed it from all your kids. So my sibiling owe me $37.50 which I have not seen a penny of, both brothers said they'd take care of it next time I see you, my sister has yet to acknowledge anything. I know my family if I call or ask them they will bitch to everyone that I just a pain in the ass.I guess bottom line is I'm so pissed at myself for once again not standing up for myself and saying No to all of them. I am so insecure when it comes to my family and just wanting to like me, I cut off my nose despite my face againI really need to get a backbone.