Well, I had to go sign contempt of court papers yesterday, it wasn't something I enjoyed but, I couldn't get X to understand that these were the terms he had agreed to,I don't want to see the dumb sh-t go to jail, but do want him to fullfil his commitments. When I think things like that, I feel like the idiot, if he didn't or couldn't keep commitments before why should he start now. My moms health is not doing well which scares the bejeezers out of me I depend on her so much, Son's progress report came yesterday and it wasn't pretty, he feels that if he passes then whats the problem,he is so capable of doing so much more, plus the teachers are not happy with his behavior, great, so he now grounded which basically means I'm grounded. Just venting, I am actually handling things well many of my friends are surprised at my attitude and calmness, as before I would have reacted alot differently. So things are getting better. I feel like I am getting myself back,which I lost somewhere in those 14 years.
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yeah i know what u mean about losing yourself -i di in 19 years though --its rough but we find ourselves somehow and get better from it --just try to help your son at school and he;ll be okay too --remember he;s been through alot too -good luck with whatever u decide !
Good for you campy. You just keep on with what you are doing. It will all wash out in the end. The son will take some time, as that was my feeling in school. If I pass, what\'s the problem? Hope your mom fairs well.
Thoughts and prayers coming your way.