This is my first journal entry.About me 49 yrs old(young), I was married for 14 years,I have 1 son who is now 14, he's a good kid, too smart for his own good at times. I felt I had to get out of my situtation, My X, drank way to much, and did stupid mean things, that he felt saying sorry would make them go away, it only made me go away, there was passive agressive behavior that just ate away on my very being, I became depressed, angry. It was when he started doing the same things to my son, that I realized I could not let it go on. as it is at times my son tries to pull the passive aggresive stuff, We both are in counseling and I go to AlAnon. I am so much happier in my life, I am finding that I am somebody I could like, this didn't happen over nite mind you but it still a work in progress. I do find that like many of us divorced or seperated people that I get lonely alot, but I was even lonier when I was with X. The only reason divorce has not been completed is health insurance, X keeps me on his, as I am self employed and it is too expensive, but then I let him use me at tax time which saves him thousand of dollars each year. So I guess my next entry will be shorter, now that you kinda of know my story. I really find strenght and inspiration from many of you here a Daily Strenght. and hope that I might give support where and when needed.. No Worries.. Campyone