Help !
It seems like I have no feelings in me any more. I am just a shell of a person. Even my cutting is getting nothing out of me again. I don't even feel like cutting. I know that is a good thing but. I use to get some thing out of it. Now I don't. I am scared. All I have left in my life are my 2 kids. They are the only reason I am still here. I see my therapist tomorrow. I will talk to her about this. All I want lately is to be dead. Like I said my 2 kids keep me here. I know I could never commit suicide and leave them do deal with the shit after I was gone. So any one reading this. Please know. I will not kill myself. I just can't change the feeling of not wanting to live.
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I know the feeling of wanting all the pain to just end. Not that I really wanted to die I just wanted the suffering to stop. I\'m glad you have your kids to keep you going. I sometimes think the only thing that has kept me alive is how much I love my husband, I couldn\'t bear the thought of leaving him. I\'m glad you\'re seeing your therapist tomorrow. Can you take an anti-depressant? I don\'t know your opinion of that. Hang on, my friend.
I can relate to how you feel and I commend you for putting your kids first and not hurting them. I stay alive for my wife\'s sake myself. I hope today is a better one for you and that you find the strength and hope to endure.