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I wish i had some one in real life to talk to about the SI thoughts. Even if i did i don't know what i would say. So i guess it doesn't matter any way. I just wish that they would leave me alone for a day or if i just had some clue why i have the thoughts i do. I haven't acted on them for a couple of weeks and i don't do any of the things i think about doing to myself. So i guess there is a silver lining to this cloud.