I did it again. I couldn't stop myself last night. The urge was just too much. I think i had about 2 months free. I know i need to let it go. I just don't know why i can't stop myself. FUCK
Oh Guy, I try to think of what that behavior would accomplish. For it is just that...a behavior...it is not you, it is not who you are...it is a thought that you choose to give power over your highest self, and my dear friend you can and will choose to STOP it in it\'s ugly tracks!
Maybe it is about trying to trump the pain you feel, maybe it is a way to release the toxic emotions you feel....maybe I am full of crap, but I feel for you and I urge you to seek professional help. Maybe you could stop yourself if you picked up the phone and talked to a help line or sponser.
Step out of yourself Guy, you are worthy of love and tender kindness....not pain. Love, Rebecca
Please don\'t beat yourself up over this. Two months really is excellent and is a sign that this can be beaten. One step backwards isn\'t the be-all and end-all - you\'ve proved how strong you can be. Don\'t give up, with perseverance you\'ll get this beaten and if you need support, you know where I am. Take care.
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Stop yourself from what????
Oh Guy, I try to think of what that behavior would accomplish. For it is just that...a behavior...it is not you, it is not who you are...it is a thought that you choose to give power over your highest self, and my dear friend you can and will choose to STOP it in it\'s ugly tracks!
Maybe it is about trying to trump the pain you feel, maybe it is a way to release the toxic emotions you feel....maybe I am full of crap, but I feel for you and I urge you to seek professional help. Maybe you could stop yourself if you picked up the phone and talked to a help line or sponser.
Step out of yourself Guy, you are worthy of love and tender kindness....not pain. Love, Rebecca
Please don\'t beat yourself up over this. Two months really is excellent and is a sign that this can be beaten. One step backwards isn\'t the be-all and end-all - you\'ve proved how strong you can be. Don\'t give up, with perseverance you\'ll get this beaten and if you need support, you know where I am. Take care.