2006 Easter Weekend

 
I'm not catholic, so I never gave it much thought. The year my son Ryan passed away was the night of good friday. His sister, my daughter Erica found him laying on the floor, next to her bed, she had 2 friends over that night, and he was talking to them as he was laying down, facing the floor, above my bedroom. Good Friday, easter weekend turned into my worst weekend ever. The thing about , Good friday it is on different weekends every year..My son turned into an angel on April 15 2006, 4 years ago Easter Weekend. It hasn't fallen on that weekend sense.....YA!! April 15th Tax day too...Easter use to be my favorite Holiday, with the Pastel Colors, the smell of spring, the new spring outfits, the easter basket wrapped in beautiful colors, the smell of the easter lily's...Awww, they smell so good...After my son past on Easter weekend, I was so angry, and sad, I cried when I smelt easter lily's...The other day I walked into some easter lily's and I just had to smell them, the smell was so cleansing, so sweet, I walked away with a smile on my face... Some how your tears and saddness, turns into love and happiness!! I never believed in a million years, that I would smile on easter again. Its like the paradox in life. Just like the Paradox in the "St. Francis Prayer".. 

"Lord, Make me a channel of thy peace - That where there is hatred - I may bring love - That where there is wrong - I may bring the spirit of fogiveness - That where there is discord, I may bring harmony - That where there is error - I may bring truth - That where there is doubt - I may bring faith - That where there is despair - I may bring hope - That where there is shadow - I may bring light -That where there is sadness - I may bring joy - Lord, grant that I may seek, rather to comfort- than to be comforted - to understand - than to be understood - to love - than to be loved - For it is by self forgetting - that one finds - It is by forgiving - that one is forgiven - it is by dying - that one awakens to eternal life. Amen

Every time I say this Prayer, it Inspires me!!  It is the Truth! The Paradox in life to live by!!! I like to live by this prayer, it gives me Great Love, as well as Happiness.....Love to all my friends here on FMO.. XOXOXO  Kelly