2 months now and it is not any easier with the loss

It has been almost 2 months now since the loss of Smokey, my husband.  It is not getting any easier.  Actually, it feels a lot harder not to cope with the pain of the loss of Smokey.  Last night was the worst.  I didn't want to go to bed but finally did at 12:30 and cried myself to sleep.  I never want to get up in the morning as it is so lonely without him.  The loneliness seems unbearable at times.  It is the things we used to do together that I miss so much.  Smokey had a kind, generous, giving and loving heart.  It's my birthday today and I miss Smokey so very much.   Diane Baillie