2 Months Into the Game
Marlow is 2 months old now. I don't know how I feel anymore.I love her, to bits, but she is a cryer. Nothing seems to make her happy. She fusses relentlessley, and when I can't take it anymore I pick her up and usually she stops.Now there are people everywhere telling me that I spoiled her and that she is a holdy baby and that it's all my fault. Maybe she is and maybe it is my fault. But they don't spend all day everyday with this little bundle of screaming.And to make matters worse, when I already feel like I'm not good enough for my little girl, my doctor refuses to give me a pill to increase milk supply and I have dried up. Forcing me to put her on formula. That stuff is so poor in every aspect compared to breast milk. And I have to listen to my mother in law rant about how she told me that Marlow wasn't getting enough food, and I should of started formula earlier.I made it 2 months, and she was putting on weight. Bullshit I wasn't producing enough!I just sort of feel like maybe I'm going through an identity crisis. Who am I anymore? I don't feel like the old me, but it seems like I can't find a new me....
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