2 days sinse !

So maybe two or three days sinse I last made a journal I had a bottle of whisky then two days after that a bottle of wine, I am ok, but the last few days in general have been so messed up, I have had pms and that tottally sucks I had a day were I felt like ending my life as if I knew that every bad day was going to return again, as if everyone who knows me will whitness those bad days like they will always be there, like no matter what I do and no matter how far I get in life I will always get back to the day that I will feel this shitty pain.